Thursday, July 28, 2011

Tell me what piques your interest.
Tell me, so I can explore your deepest.
Chill with your motives.
And meet your secrets.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

sometimes you have to hang from a precipice to get a handle on life storms ...~

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Finding a Connection to God

1:18 June 2, 2011
There is a feeling of joy and warmth in the soul when you find your connection to God or a Greater Spirit, which is both fulfilling and indescribable. However, I fight many battles with myself to practice my deen, religion, and to become a devout Muslim. I yearn to be a person who can pray five times a day, no matter where, and to learn scriptures from the Quran, the holy book. Yet my selfish ways part me from connecting to my religion and lord. However, I learn to take things one day at a time. Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) did not go through his voyage on this earth without experiencing lives turmoil and difficult, neither did Jesus nor any-other pious Prophet. Therefore, no person should feeling apprehensive of their faith, but, rather, embrace it everyday of their lives by remembering God and asking him for forgiveness and guidance. Indeed, we all face challenges in life how we deal and overcome these challenges are what define us. Nonetheless, I always remember God and the beauty of life he has blessed me with, to be able to wake up in the morning with food in my fridge, to have a mother to call, and the ability to learn and love. I always ask him to forgive me for my countless sins.
From a young age, I learned to love God and my religion and I’m thankful for my mother who has always reminded me of him and his blessings. In Islam it says, for men and women who engage much in remembering of Allah ‘God’ for them has Allah prepared forgiveness and a great reward; bring your Lord to remembrance in your (very) soul with humility and remember without loudness in words, in mornings and evenings and be not of those who are unheedful. The prophet said, the comparison of the one who remembers God and the one who does not is like that of the living and the dead. Conversely, if you believe in God, the unseen, the heavens/earth remember our Creator and remember to count your blessings! I hope in the near future I can say, “I’m a faithful Muslim who prays five times a day. Inshallah (if Allah wills)

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Dear Love,

He walked into the room
my eyes glued on to him.
He was like the perfect eye candy
Sexy and Shirtless to me
eyes watered words
I played it cool
I never make the first move.

Hi my name is Chris
Lila: Nice to meet you.
Chris: My friend mike says he goes to college with you ... You’re very beautiful and would love to get to know you. I’m leaving this party, I have work in the morning. However, here is my card ... we should have lunch soon.

A few weeks passed.
Our relationship blossomed like a teenage metal band
He---went straight for my heart; stole a precious jewel
He---said all the right things at the right times.
My wisdom and wittedness went out the door.
I was comfortable
showed him, my softest spots and created a flawless image of him.
Not realizing how much sex changes the dynamics of relationships.
I began to make “us” too much of what barely existed outside of the bedroom.

I wanted him; needed him.
around and inside me, at exactly the right moments.
I held on extra tight and he bolted away from me

Fed so much into him.
I was at a place I didn’t know why.
I found myself alone and confused in a corner
Could’ve died and been reincarnated with the wounds.
They cut so deep
Couldn’t recognize me
Couldn’t see deeper into me

Maybe if I slept with patience before I met Mr. scrumptious
love could’ve unwind its self and played soft melodies of sliding guitars and the songs of the ocean.
I learned through an abandon heart
Dear Love, I miss you ... or, so think I do.